Not Good, Not Good At All...

The political changes in Turkey scares me a lot these days. Matter of fact, I am afraid for my life and my future. Turkey is going to some kind of religious revolution. I am afraid our end could like to be Iran. Unfortunately nobody is listening to me. They think this is some kind of empty word but it is not. People who call themselves "educated" and "intellectual" just ignore my fear. They say it won't happen in Turkey, but people in Iran said the same thing too before the revolution and their ignorence cost them a lot.

I am very scared and very helpless about it... gee...

Not All The Weekends Should Be Fun or Calm...

Statement of the last weekend: Had to entertain more than fifteen tousand brainless people in two days, one big nervous breakdown, one diazem shot in the arse, lots of sunburn even 50 factor sunmilk, hell of a hot weather...

Result: Feel like squashed by Pink Floyd consert convoy (fouty long vehicle) optical focus difficulties, pain in the sunburn areas...

Worst part: I have to do this again in next weekend. This time for not two but three days... I am doomed!

In this circumstance, I LOVE WEEKDAYS!

Kurt Vonnegut's Rules For Writing Fiction

I was stumbling and found this and I really liked it. Maybe I need to listen to him. Maybe I could start to write again... At least I know my sister will likes when she reads it. So... it is for you sis, enjoy!

1. Use the time of a total stranger in such a way that he or she will not feel the time was wasted.
2. Give the reader at least one character he or she can root for.
3. Every character should want something, even if it is only a glass of water.
4. Every sentence must do one of two things — reveal character or advance the action.
5. Start as close to the end as possible.
6. Be a sadist. Now matter how sweet and innocent your leading characters, make awful things happen to them — in order that the reader may see what they are made of.
7. Write to please just one person. If you open a window and make love to the world, so to speak, your story will get pneumonia.
8. Give your readers as much information as possible as soon as possible. To heck with suspense. Readers should have such complete understanding of what is going on, where and why, that they could finish the story themselves, should cockroaches eat the last few pages.

- Vonnegut, Kurt Vonnegut, Bagombo Snuff Box: Uncollected Short Fiction (New York: G.P. Putnam’s Sons 1999), 9-10.

Needing ideas and adopted kitten

I have a cat, a little kitten who six weeks old right now. He was orphan, his mother died when he was only twenty days old. My friend took care of him for a while and now he is with me. He is my life saver, he keeps me sane after I lost my baby... He always sleep right before me or when I go to bed, with me. He lay down on my pillow and starting to purr, and after that, we fall a sleep together... I had a sleeping problem before but not anymore.

I don't know what to say right now. I feel lost sometimes, maybe I should talk about this. I wonder, is there anyone who didn't feel lost his or her entire life? Is it possible? I know that opposite is possible. I mean a human being who feels lost his or her entire life. I have a sister like that. She always felt lost and confused and unhappy, she still does...

I have a writing problem for quite sometime. I am, usually, a writer. I write stories and I have unfinished (and never will be) novel. Sometimes I think I will never write a story, ever again... but I don't know, maybe I am wrong, maybe I'll write a colorful and beautiful story or even start and finish a novel... I know one thing; when I write, I feel refresh, peace and satisfaction. In this case, first line of the Jedi Code becomes useless "there is no emotion, there is peace". If I have no emotion, I can't write. If I don't write I can't feel peace, so Jedi order is wrong... there is emotion and there is peace in it...

Maybe I should start blogging, some people do and they say it helps a lot. Actually this should be my first entry...

By the way in May 29th, David Prowse (Darth Vader in first trilogy) will be here in Istanbul. I am very exited about this...