Needing ideas and adopted kitten

I have a cat, a little kitten who six weeks old right now. He was orphan, his mother died when he was only twenty days old. My friend took care of him for a while and now he is with me. He is my life saver, he keeps me sane after I lost my baby... He always sleep right before me or when I go to bed, with me. He lay down on my pillow and starting to purr, and after that, we fall a sleep together... I had a sleeping problem before but not anymore.

I don't know what to say right now. I feel lost sometimes, maybe I should talk about this. I wonder, is there anyone who didn't feel lost his or her entire life? Is it possible? I know that opposite is possible. I mean a human being who feels lost his or her entire life. I have a sister like that. She always felt lost and confused and unhappy, she still does...

I have a writing problem for quite sometime. I am, usually, a writer. I write stories and I have unfinished (and never will be) novel. Sometimes I think I will never write a story, ever again... but I don't know, maybe I am wrong, maybe I'll write a colorful and beautiful story or even start and finish a novel... I know one thing; when I write, I feel refresh, peace and satisfaction. In this case, first line of the Jedi Code becomes useless "there is no emotion, there is peace". If I have no emotion, I can't write. If I don't write I can't feel peace, so Jedi order is wrong... there is emotion and there is peace in it...

Maybe I should start blogging, some people do and they say it helps a lot. Actually this should be my first entry...

By the way in May 29th, David Prowse (Darth Vader in first trilogy) will be here in Istanbul. I am very exited about this...